Bfth's Boring Blog

It's the day before Halloween and tonight is usually considered (at least around here) Mischief Night.  There usually isn't too much mischief around here.  Usually my front tree would get tangled in t.p.  The culprit I know wanted me to think it was local kids, but I KNEW who it was and the adult who was behind it has moved away, so I don't know if it will happen this year.  The only reason I found it annoying at all was that it would obscure the decorations we already had in the tree and often the t.p. would get wet...and removing wet t.p...well, YUCK. Who knows what Halloween will actually look like this year?  If this was a "normal"  year I'd be prepping with lots of candy.  A Saturday night being Halloween?  That just screams kids running all over the place.  This year; doubtful.  We live on a dead end which is rarely visited.  And I wonder do I hand out candy this year (I do have some along with some non-edible treats because of the teal pumpkin project  

  Let me come out and say it.  American is NOT great.  I WANT America to be great. But take a long, hard, HONEST look at our country right now.  We are NOT great.  We are a HOT MESS.   This has been bothering me for a while.  I've been trying to put this into a post for a while.  I've been unsuccessful, but I'm going to give it another try.  Because if nothing else, I need to try.  There are a plethora of issues and problems that need to be addressed and solved.  There have always been problems, but we've got more than our share of them right now and while I don't have the answers to all of them, I DO see ways to get ourselves out of this pit that we have dug ourselves in.  We need leaders who will LEAD and focus on/care for all equally (or as equally as possible because let's face it we are ALL biased in one way or another.)  I want to be clear that this is NOT about political parties. Parties are NOT the problem; PEOPLE and their behavior are the problem.

  From June of 2016 to March 12, 2020, a week didn't go by that I didn't have this view (or some variation of it.)  It's not that I didn't take time off (I did), but since I was hired as a Sales Operations Analyst (and I'm still not 100% sure what that means), I haven't take a full week off.  One of the things I loved about the office was the view.  Yes, I hated the commute.  (Route 3 has never been fun and I've worked in two offices that have meant this highway was part of my daily grind.)  But I loved my little part of the office suite.  I had a big window that gave me a partial view of NYC (which is what you can kind of see off in the distance) and view of the marshland/wetlands which meant birds of all types flew by.  (That was definitely cool.)  The window was not well insulated which meant when the sun was out, no matter what season it was, I would get HOT.  (It got hotter than the photo shows here.  Even in the dead of winter it could it hit over 90 d

  I try to be an optimist.  I'm pretty much always a realist.  However, right now, no matter what I am, I'm not okay.  Overall and in general, things are NOT okay.  I'm not sure what to do about it, other than state the obvious:  things are NOT okay. It's not that anything horrible is happening in my personal life.  I still have a job and my family is healthy.  (Let's knock on wood for that.)  But the strain of life is getting me down and I am feeling "out of sorts."  I'm definitely discombobulated.  (I really like that word.)  I'm uneasy.  I'm uncomfortable.  I'm unfocused. I feel like I just can't get a handle on anything. I don't think I'm alone in all this.  We are in a time where everything is topsy turvey.  Negativity seems to be the new norm; across the board.  And while I understand the anger and frustration that we are all feeling, I feel like constancy of it has eroded my soul. Make America Great?  What is so great abo

It's Sunday, October 18th.  It's a really nice day. I shouldn't be inside writing this post; I should be outside walking.  Specifically, I should be walking in the local park with my family.  More specifically, I should be walking in the park with my family and hundreds of other people as we raise awareness about suicide.  But this year there is no physical walk.  And, sad to say, this year, with all the crazy that's been going on, I haven't been focused on a virtual walk or even given my all to try and raise funds.  For that I am sorry.  But I thought I might make up for that, at least partially, by writing this and hopefully encouraging you (whoever you might be) to make a donation to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.  (My page can be found here ) There has been a walk, practically in my backyard, for the past three years.  Although the AFSP has walks all over the country, this one came about predominantly as a result of a young man's suicide in

 My son is taking a digital photography class.  One of his assignments, which I found fascinating, was to take a photo of every letter in the alphabet from things around him in the house (or I guess outside).  He was a little freaked out doing it in a 50 minute time period (turns out it wasn't due at the end of the period, but...) so I got involved trying to help him find letters around the house.  I believe this is part of a larger assignment and I got me thinking...(dangerous territory I know) A couple of days ago , in under a hour, I too photographed the alphabet using items around the house.  My "project" is to present each photo, in alphabetical order, coming up with a word (or words) for each letter and tying such to a thought or belief that I have.  This may be serious; this may be silly.  I'm not sure how this will turn out, but here we go:  America:  It's not my country; it's not your country.  It's ours.  Please don't tell  me if I don't