Who Will? Will You?

Note:  I'm usually an upbeat and positive person (or at least I'd like to think I am!), but everyone has their limits. It's not one thing or one person...it's EVERYTHING. It's not the straw that broke the camel's back...it's the straws that break the camel's back over and over again.  It's the camel's back that heals and then is broken over and over again in a neverending cycle that wears you to the bone.    Some days you've just got to scream, cry or whatever.  I'd like to think of this as vomiting up my pent up feelings and frustrations.  Hopefully, once I do this, I will be able to move on without the anger, sorrow, etc.  (I usually do.)  As Paul McCartney so eloquently once said/sang:  "I've had enough; I can't put up with any more.  No, No, No, No, no, no."  We all get to that point...and, for the most part, then we go on and we DO put up with more...until we get to that point again.  So with that said, I give you today's emotion filled post.

Who will drive you when I'm no longer around?  Who will take you to the doctor?  To school?  To the grocery store?  Sure there's Uber or Lyft.  How are you going to pay for that?  You can get those groceries delivered, but who's going to pay for that?  

Who will pay the bills?  Who will purchase the groceries?  Who will pay the utilities?  Don't forget about oil, water, sewer, phone, internet, cable...Well at least there will be no bill for the car insurance; so you'll "save" over $1000 there.  Maybe you can even take a vacation; go somewhere nice and relaxing.  Who will pay for it?  Who will plan it?

Save?  What is there to save?  Whatever money there is will go fast.  Living isn't cheap; which you will quickly find out.  Will you be able to afford those cell phones?  How about the internet?  Think about the prescriptions?  What do you know about insurance?  

You could get a job, couldn't you?  IF you get hired somewhere you'll have to figure out how to get there and a schedule.  Who will get you out the door?  Will your salary cover your costs?  How can you balance everything?  Pretty stressful isn't it?  Will you be able to do it?

Who will remind you of what needs to be done?  Who will you blame when it doesn't?  What will you think when you forget the assignment?  And forget again?  You don't care about grades.  Won't have to worry about college costs...Keep thinking only of the present moment and don't prepare for the future.  What will you do when the future is here?  When there is no one to prod you?  Who will you be angry at?  Who will you lash out at?  

Who will do the cleaning?  Who needs cleaning?  What's a little soap scum or poop stain?  When the dust bunnies roll by who will you blame?  When the lawn is as high as your knee, will you do something about it?  There are cleaning people and there are lawn care services, but who's going to pay for that?  Who will pay those bills?

Who will you rely on?  Who will double check you work and make sure numbers are in alignment?  Who will answer your calls and emails after hours?  Who will understand your indecipherable messages?  Who will make sure that you are up to date?  Who will act as the go-between for you?  Will you be ready to face management without the help you are so used to?

Who will be there to listen when you need to vent?  Who will be there to guide you?  Who will be there to lend a helping hand?  Who will do those "little" things that can no longer be done?  Who will plan?  Who will remember?  Those things that aren't important until there not done.  When they aren't done, will you do them?  

  

What WILL you do?  What WON'T you do?  Will you miss the way it was?  Will you think maybe you should have listened?  Maybe you should have done something differently?  When I'm gone will you miss ME or will you miss what is no longer done; what is no longer there.  Will you do the work or will you ignore it?   Will you stand up and DO or will you just let life pass by?

Who will do ALL this and more?  Will you?